Cancer

What is this that has taken me so forcibly

Has wrapped its arms and legs around me

And draining me of my strength

My pride

My desires

What has worked its way into my very being

And set up its place of abode

You have taken over this body

That still had dreams

Plans

Desires

You have robbed me

Daily you take of me

My hope dwindles

I question about life

And death

I still had so much to live for

Places to go

Things I wanted to do

You are robbing me of those dreams

Replacing them with your plans for me

Plans that I don't want

Did I open the door to you

Did I make a place for you

And welcomed you into me

No doubt I have

The foolishness of our youth

Captures us

We think we can escape you

But there is no escape

For me now

At one time I could have turned my back to you

Refused you entry

But I never thought I would fall prey

It would always be someone else

That would fall under your spell

I waited too long

To cast you out

Wasted all those years

That have past

And those that could have been

Gone they are now

Too late for me

How dreadful this is

I am not content

Not happy

My God only knows my end

And when

He only knows when my time is up

I could have had so much more

But stubborn I was

Too proud to walk away

And now I will answer for my stubbornness

And will have to accept what has befallen me

Daily I watch as my body is gathered up into its web

Like a spider taking over its prey

Slowly wrapping its web over and under

Until it has completely consumed its target

And this I have no choice but to wait



Gail Adams Aug. 15/10

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